Loss and Grief

Dear Alana, My sweet girl. I started writing another blog to put out for the one-year mark of losing you. (I hate the word anniversary. Anniversary is a word that sounds like something you should be celebrating). This blog was a letter to Sarah from a year ago. Warning myself of all the things to come. I got part way through it and realized that it just felt wrong. What I truly wanted to do was to write to you. I know that I write a letter to you every night, but I wanted t

There are some moments in life that we will never forget. Try as I might, I will never forget the moment when Alana started to struggle to breathe. When I thought she was just having a panic attack. I will never forget watching her take her last breath, or when her heart stopped under my fingers. I cannot unhear the moment when the doctor called the time of death. Every single one of those moments will stay with me for the rest of my life. But there is another moment, just da

Coming to terms with the reality that it is okay to struggle following the loss of a loved one.