Parenting while grieving

There are some moments in life that we will never forget. Try as I might, I will never forget the moment when Alana started to struggle to breathe. When I thought she was just having a panic attack. I will never forget watching her take her last breath, or when her heart stopped under my fingers. I cannot unhear the moment when the doctor called the time of death. Every single one of those moments will stay with me for the rest of my life. But there is another moment, just da